Not so long ago I wrote a post about change and why it’s good for you. Little did I know three months down the track the plans I had for myself and my future life weren’t going to be exactly as I had hoped for. Change can be good however it doesn’t always come without pain, sacrifice and little bit of courage.
Over the past few weeks I took a break from reality and from the social media world so I could process and deal with the huge changes and decisions I was facing in my own life. Unfortunately the universe had other plans for me and I am saddened to say that I will not be returning to Vancouver this year. This was a very difficult decision for me knowing I would be leaving behind some irreplaceable friendships, an incredible city and a life full of adventures.
I would be lying if I said I wasn’t going through heartbreak about letting go of someone who has meant the world to me for the past 5 years, however sometimes you need to let a free spirit roam free. I still find myself uncertain, unsure and sad but have finally accepted that unfortunately sometimes you need to let go of something or someone to allow them to truly soar in this world. In this process you will learn more about yourself and find out who you really are. When you spend such a long time with one person you learn the value of a true best friend, you share the ups and downs together and you realise the two of you share a lifetime of memories that can never be replaced. You take away the good things it brought out in you and learn from the bad. We all learn lessons in everything we do in life and I am so grateful for the experiences I have shared and the love I have given and recieved. I can honestly say I wouldn’t be where I am today without them.
If there is anything that I want you to take away from this post it’s know your own self worth, don’t take people in your life for granted, take the risks and never ever ever give up on your hopes and dreams. Its only human nature to feel at a loss when we are faced with difficult times in our lives. Allow yourself time to refocus and regroup and most importantly try to stay positive it the mess of it all.
When a chapter closes in our life it opens the possibility of a fresh start. Something I am excited and looking forward to. I don’t know exactly what the future holds for me and I’m actually okay with that. I am looking forward to using this time to focus on myself and what I want in my life, in my career and in my future relationships. I know some days it will be hard and other days I will have victories but that is all a part of the healing process. Today I choose to be happy and live my life with an open heart and open mind. I aim to work tirelessly at my business, content creation and focus my energy on only the good things and people in my life. I’m sure someday I will go back and visit Vancouver or maybe even try again at going to school there next year. Who knows what the future holds for me, but whatever it is I’m excited to watch it all unfold and see myself reach my full potential!