“Always go with the choice that scares you the most, because that is the one that is going to help you grow” – Caroline Myss
As you all might have realised recently I took an absence from Instagram and the blog. Over the past couple of months I have been faced with some hard decisions, exciting opportunities and the prospect of some scary changes. I felt it was important to put all my energy into this aspect of my life and take a break from the social media world so I could make my decisions with a clear mind and soul.
I have been living in Vancouver for the past two years and have loved every second of it! When I came to the country I was issued with a 2 year working visa and moved over with the goal of giving my acting career a really good go! Over time after going out for audition after audition with no success I began feeling disheartened and started focusing my energy in something I felt I was slowly succeeding at which was fashion and blogging. I started to branch out and get to know people in the industry and slowly over time I felt myself growing and becoming part of a network of people who were challenging me to achieve bigger things for my blog and my career pathway.
I went out and invested in a really good camera so I could start creating better content. I started working with some amazing photographers and I also enrolled myself into a blogging course which was held in LA so I could learn the ins and outs to blogging. I learnt about SEO (Search Engine Optimisation) the benefits of Pintrest, Facebook pages and Instagram. Slowly I felt I was becoming knowledgeable and able to use what I was learning to grow my business (Knowledge is absolute power). I turned to my amazing boyfriend to teach me his talented ways about using Lightroom and Photoshop (poor guy, I think he had to repeat himself 50 times to get it to stick!). As I was going through this process I started to discover things about myself; I started to realised I am a very harsh critic when it comes to my work and I am not very easily satisfied with myself. I noticed I am always striving for something more, to be better, find ways to create better content, to do more. I noticed I was constantly comparing my own success with other people who have major numbers on Instagram wondering how I could ever compete! (This was a great reminder to only compete with yourself and sit back and realise where you were before and where you are now because you are always growing!)
Fast forward almost 2 years and here we are today. I can safely say I am not the same person I was when I moved to Canada. My life has been forever evolving and changing before my eyes without me even knowing it. I had always been a person who was scared of change and the unknown but as I sit back I realise that my pathway was coming together without me even knowing it so what was a really afraid of? I have grown personally and grown my business and I can say I am proud of my achievements thus far. I had to sit down and think about what I wanted for myself and for my life as I feel like I am getting to an age where I want to start building serious foundations for myself; which is why I am very excited to tell you that I have been accepted into school here in Vancouver to study Fashion Marketing!! If you had of talked to me a year ago I would of told you I never wanted to study or go to university but I feel I have opened my mind and started to open my heart to the opportunities that are coming my way. I really want to make a conscious effort to be a YES person and to grasp onto my life and run with it.
Nothing comes without its challenges as I will have to head home to Australia for a couple of months to save for my tuition meaning having to miss out on the summer in Vancouver and doing the dreaded long distance with my handsome man but if its one thing I have learnt from all of this is that change is inevitable and nothing comes easy in life. It takes hard work and persistence to reach your goals and what will be short term pain, I see to be a very long term gain!